I don't know what I'm doing or am going to do with my life. I went and talked to an advisor today since I register for classes tomorrow and I'm pretty much stuck in a hole. Why am I stuck in a hole you may ask? Well, I'm stuck in a hole because I was a cocky little bitch that thought passing a grammar exam was going to easy peasy and I didn't pass so now I have to retake it April 28th. Without passing that test, I can't register for any 3000 level classes which means I'm stuck with only like 4 classes to take. I need/have to take summer classes and only three of them are even offered over the summer. Oh, and I can't register for ANY fall classes until after April 28th if I pass the test. Which means I will have to just take whatever I can get, and I dislike that. I am beyond stressing. I know that it's all my fault that I didn't pass the grammar exam the first time and I'm fully prepared to bust my ass and study even harder this time to pass it. I'm burnt out on college and I want to get done no matter what it takes. My mom is understandably ill with me about this whole class/school thing. The longer I'm here the more money we borrow in loans. Sadly, I'm already in debt due to student loans. I feel like a failure and like I've done nothing my entire college career but let my parent's down and that bothers me so bad. I cried all the way home from campus because I'm so bothered by all of this. It's sad that I'm almost 22 and I have absolutely no idea when I'm graduating. That's right, NO idea. I don't like feeling like I've let my parents down or that their disappointed in me. Maybe I'm not cut out for college, like a big college like Southern, but I refuse to drop out and go to a technical school. That's not what I want to do with my life, I know that much. I will get up at 6am tomorrow morning, register for the summer classes I can take, and go from there. I know stressing over this whole predicament isn't going to solve anything...
Deep breaths and I'll get through it.
I'm sorry! Don't stress over it too much because I'm sure everything will work out just fine! :)
ReplyDeleteI'll be praying for you! Sounds cliche but it will all work out like it's suppose to!
ReplyDeleteHi there! I found you via Southern Hospitality's blog and just wanted to stop by and say hi! I am sending you a follow request now :)
ReplyDeleteDeep breaths girl! I know how this feels - I changed my major this winter and now in order to get into the classes I need to next fall I have to take classes over the summer to catch up. Good luck on the tests - you can do it!! :)
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